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POOR AND ALONE WITH NO HOPE IN SIGHT Hard Life My shitty life Bad Luck Stories Links Directory Archive by Month: 2012 April 2012 March 2012 February 2012 January 2011 December 2011 November 2011 October 2011 September 2011 August 2011 July 2011 June 2011 May 2011 April 2011 March 2011 February 2011 January 2010 December 2010 November 2010 October 2010 September 2010 August 2010 July 2010 June 2010 May 2010 April 2010 March 2010 February January 2010 December 2009 November 2009 October 2009 September 2009 August 2009 July 2009 June 2009 May 2009 April 2009 March 2009 February 2009 January 2009 November 2008 October 2008 September 2008 May 2008 February 2008 January 2008 Ads: hier seo tool Buying Viagra in UK is simple, just visit http://www.buy-viagra-uk.net Buy cheap talafil 20mg cialis from canada online at www.viagra-canada.com Food Website Templates write my paper [Tell Your Story] untitled story Posted by anonymous at April 3, 2012 Static Link Tags: 2012 April Attitude Im 26 I have just graduated from school with a bachelors in nursing. Ive always done pretty good in school and have had good friends trought out my life. The reason im posting is around novemeber i started to feel a loss in interest in hobbies, conversation, and going out. I was talking to a really cool girl at the a few months prior. we hit it off well but then after i started having these feelings i began to loose interest in her. the thing is I dont know why. now we dont really talk anymore. I have just started a new job and on a unit that i like but my downward sprial seems to just continue? I dont feel as social and enthused in life. has any one ever felt like this? see Ive never had a rough life and I feel there is no viable reason for me to feel the way i do. Ive tried sucking it up, going out, working out, etc.. and im just getting annoyed with the way i feel. Comments: 4 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 4] [Not really that bad 12] Life is a test Posted by anonymous at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Attitude 38 year old male. No friends. No family. Never had a partner. Lack of personal meaning with life. Quit job, trashed my belongings and made plans to commit suicide, but chickened out. Decided to sleep, play computer games and masturbate instead. Now i haven't talked to anyone for 8 months and have large debts. Can't blame anyone except me and my lack of tolerance for boredom and other people. Feel pretty good at the moment though and will try to come back to the same meaningless boring shit once again. Life sucks, but sometimes worth living anyway. For now... Comments: 1 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 9] [Not really that bad 5] Trying to find happiness Posted by anonymous at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April It seems like I have been suffering from depression off and on for most of my life. Despite that, I've managed to get an education and a job. It was often a struggle but I've always wanted a "normal life". It had been hard for me and I pushed on with the hope of having a wife and family one day. I had a major breakdown in 1988 and for the last 25 years I've been suffering from OCD and depression. I take meds and sometimes it's good sometimes not so much. More recently, I thought I would try to fulfill one of my life-long dreams which was to have a child. I couldn't get my girfriend/wife to agree to have one. Then finally she made up her mind and we tried for a while then more recentlty she changed her mind on the matter and now has decided not to. This has made me kind of lose a bit of hope because that was something I've been dreaming about for years. Realistically, I'm too old now so I'm stuck trying to find something of value to do with my life. I know life could be worse but there are days when one questions things. When I get down my OCD gets worse too which is not good. I worry about things endlessly. I came accross this website so I thought I'd write. Sometimes it's hard to know where to vent... Comments: 3 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 2] [Not really that bad 3] why? Posted by gavin at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Attitude I hate my life. i hate myself for writing about how much it sucks-but it really fucking does. i was married, i didnt love her anymore (i worked, she didnt-resentment built up and killed my love for her). we split up a year ago but she still lives with me as she has nowhere else to go. so i go to work at a job i hate(im a chef and dont want to be a chef buti need to work to pay my bills). I then go home to my studio apartment and ex-wife-no space to myself. sometimes to break the routine (up at 5.30am, work, home, bed by ten..) i get drunk...but then i feel guilty as i dont have much money... im not whinging...every day is the same pile of stinking shit and i fucking hate it, i hate waking up in the morning, i hate people, i hate the world...everything is fucking shit... Comments: 3 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 8] [Not really that bad 4] This love triangle sucks Posted by blabla at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Relationship 3 years ago I caught my husband of 4 years flirting online. I had met guys online before but had never flirted with them ever. I got so pissed off and drunk one night after an argument with my husband and started talking more to an online friend, lets call him Jim. It first started with voice chat, I couldn't believe it, his voice was incredibly sexy, I'd never talked to him before. Eventually we saw each other on webcam and we were both attracted to what we saw. By this time, I knew I was heading for trouble. We've probably shared a hundred photos of each other by now. I didn't expect to start liking him though. I wasn't looking for anything, I was just pissed off and this happened. I told my husband about Jim out of anger one night, and stop talking to Jim every now and then because I wanted to work on my marriage. Our marriage didn't get any better. My husband and I are now separated because we used to argue all the time, and I told Jim about a month after I moved out. But now my husband is trying to win me back, I am so lost and confused. And here I am lying to both of them, telling my husband I am not talking to Jim, and telling Jim I am over my husband. God I hate this shit. I don't know who to choose. A man I've never met in real life or the man I married who constantly lies to me and god knows if he has been unfaithful. I didn't ask for this shit to happen. I didn't ask my husband to lie to me, and I didn't know Jim would turn out to be a really nice guy. I'm worried that if I completely cut my husband out of my life and meet Jim, I fear Jim may turn out to be a total jack ass. That would kill me. And I'm worried that if I don't meet Jim and stay with my husband, he will lie again and treat me like shit, and I will be miserable. I just want to cry. I deserve more than this. I don't know what to do. Comments: 6 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 6] [Not really that bad 3] Dont know Posted by Bella Luna at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Attitude Loneliness Unemployment I'm 29 years old single women. i don't know how to put it across what i am going through. life has never been a bed of roses for me. my childhood sucked. my parents got divorced when i was 6 years old. i stayed with my mother and 2 brothers, m the middle child. my mother always loved and favored my elder brother. i was a lonely and fat kid. i had no friend no one wanted to talk to me cause i was fat and came from a broken family. my own brother use to ignore me in school, as if i was an embarrassment factor for him. i wasn't a brilliant student either i always managed to just pass out. i was always interested in music however my mother never encouraged me. i never had any other talent. i was wasted. I didn't complete my graduation cause i took a drop from college in my final year and started working to support my family, cause my brother wanted to complete his masters.my love life sucks, in fact i don't have a love life. I've been in relationships but nothing clicked, cause they all are attracted to my personality, m tall, average looking( that's what i think) and i smoke, i drink etc. I've always been an easy going person, though m reserved and shy. i m a real loner, and ppl take my this quality for an attitude problem. I've never cared what ppl think about me. i have always been loyal in friendship however i have always been betrayed by my friends. my job was going great that was the only thing that use to make me happy as i was always appreciated by my bosses and my team. however due to some circumstances i had to quit my job as a team manager. and now I'm struggling to find a job, it's been 6 months that am jobless. my family has stared treating me like an outsider.whatever saving i had i gave it to my mother and now I'm penny less.my life sucks!!! i got no job, no social life and no support from my so called family. i don't know why m writing this may be cause m bitter,m jaded and m alone and also i don't have any one to talk to. Comments: 4 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 8] [Not really that bad 0] When dreams turn to nightmares. Posted by DeadEndLife at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Family My Dad died at the young age of 50. A massive heart attack, I was 25. He smoked, had high blood pressure, and recently settled down after a somewhat bitter divorce. I never knew exactly why my Mom and Dad divorced, but looking back money or lack thereof probably played a major role. My Father worked hard on a "swing shift" (4PM - 12AM), and spent his weekends mostly at a friends house just up the street. My Mom would work occasionally when money was tight. She worked odd jobs and never really held a skilled position of any kind. Rarely, would my parents show physical affection towards one another in front of me or my siblings. Communication was non-existent between them. We could sometime feel there was something wrong, but as children we never really recognized it as a potential problem. But maybe that to was my imagination. My parents never left us in need. As children and my younger Sister,Brother and I always received what we asked for. We were never abused, I can't remember us ever being spanked for doing something wrong. And we did do a lot of "kid" stuff that deserved a little discipline according to all the "experts" today. So, I grew up in a sort of fantasy land where I didn't have to work hard to get what I wanted, I had no reason to expect any kind of retribution for anything considered wrong, and I had a mixed view of what a marriage was suppose to be. I know we were loved, but is there such a thing as being too loved? As I m... Read Entire Entry >>> Comments: 2 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 1] [Not really that bad 3] Sigh Posted by nobody special at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Attitude Loneliness I am wealthy, popular, handsome, and talented. Many people have told me that they wish they had my life. Men always ask me for advice on how they can be more like me. I have slept with more beautiful women than I can remember. I have been to parties only celebrities attend. I have traveled to many different counties of the world. Why aren't I happy? I used to be a poor and lonely kid that no one cared about. My parents died when I was a toddler and so I spent many of my years in a foster home. When I was in elementary school, I had no friends, no one that really cared about me. I was so lonely. One day, when I was 11, I discovered that I had many talents. So I honed and practiced them tirelessly, every single day and year by year by myself until near-perfection, until what I did became recognized by not just my class, or my neighborhood, or my town, but the entire nation, and many years later, the world. I achieved so much success and fortune by my late teens. Now I consider myself to be one of the most successful people in my field. But I am not happy. I am lonely. All of my hard work, but still I can't say that I've ever met a person who truly cared about me, for the person I am and have always been. The only reason anyone wants anything to do with me is because of my success. Fake smiles, fake hugs, fake friendships, fake relationships. Everyone is just using me to get to something they want for themselves. I donate to charitable organizations regularly for noble caus... Read Entire Entry >>> Comments: 22 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 11] [Not really that bad 29] Depressed, Anxious, Lonely, All of the Above... Posted by anonymous at April 3, 2012 Tags: Anxiety 2012 April Loneliness I am female & in my mid 20s. I already have a Bachelor's, but with no luck in the job front for over a year, I am back in School, taking prerequisites for a different career path. However, recently I have been dealing with severe anxiety and depression mixed in with hopelessness. Errands and chores people would normally find "easy" are now strenuous and anxiety-inducing for me. A lot of it is related to school stress (Social Anxiety, & Panic Disorder), mixed in with self-loathing, put-downs, and horrid body image issues (i.e. My weight, meaning I have struggled with being overweight most of my life so far, & have been gaining weight recently). I have started therapy, which seems to slowly help, & I have also seen a psychiatrist and I am contemplating medication, but I don't really want to go on an every-day med...I don't know, I suppose it's due to the stigma attached to daily meds, i.e. "Ohh, your crazy" or "You're stupid, you don't need that...it's worse for you then it is good." etc etc. I am trying to help myself, but sometimes I just don't know what to do with myself. I moved back in with my parents a half year after college, due to joblessness/no money, so that has been hard, as well. My mom recently has been telling me, "You can be this pretty again, and your face had a nice shape, too..." when showing me my high school senior year portrait. I was really (& am really defensive) about my weight, & she simply says, "Oh, I didn't mean it like that.... Read Entire Entry >>> Comments: 10 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 2] [Not really that bad 0] untitled story Posted by anonymous at April 3, 2012 Static Link Tags: Anxiety 2012 April Sociopathy i used to have debilitating social anxiety resulting in depression. for years i was afraid to answer my cell phone, leave my house, or make eye contact with anyone. i felt guilty for hating my life since it wasn't that bad. but i sought help and overcame it. i haven't been depressed in two years. in fact, i've been quite happy. i thought my life was finally moving in the right direction. then i was diagnosed with tb. it's nothing serious. i'll get better. but for the past month and a half i've been under quarantine and being in the same fucking apartment every day for six weeks straight, not even having the option of leaving is starting to get to me. all the same familiar symptoms and starting to reappear, and i fear i'm headed exactly where i used to be. depressed, pathetic, and lonely. i know i don't have any friends (which is my own fault for being so damn unsocial), which has only been confirmed by two or three people checking in on me since i've been sick (all of whom completely forgot i was sick once they realized i had a contagious disease that could possibly put them at risk. essentially, screw you, what about me?). my parents love me, but they are on the other side of the country and can't visit me because i'm in quarantine. i feel terribly alone and i don't have anyone to blame but myself for being such a shitty friend. i feel guilty for having to disappear from work for what will probably be months, making all my coworkers take on extra shifts for me i... Read Entire Entry >>> Comment Votes: [Yes, it sucks 3] [Not really that bad 0] I JUST WANT OUT Posted by CRAP at April 3, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Loneliness I am in my late twenties never had a real relationship, I've always sort sexual pleasures from escorts. I don't know how to relate to people I'm not shy just a bit socially inept. My mom died when i was very young I really can not remember her much a few years after her death I injured in an accident and was partial disabled in my eyes. My dad died when I was in my teens I had a hard time coping with that I started drinking and smoking heavily I use to drink to the point off blackout back then hoping that i would totally block out the pain. I tried to kill myself several times during that period in my life. I still do not know how i managed to make it into my twenties but i did I am now gainfully employed qualified & earning a decent salary. that is thing unfortunately I am also bisexual which i discovered in my teens when I had sex with a close family friend who by the way is married & has kids we had a brief affair. I am still depressed I gave up on god and religion along time ago i even got into satanism a while back. However, I still have suicidal thoughts and depression combined with my alcoholism is hell i have recently started back trying to kill myself to no avail. I was also a male escort for a short period in my life and the funny thing about those days was that i did not do i for the money but rather for the sex which is funny as hell to me sometimes. i still can not shake my suicidal thoughts my life seems empty and stuck in a moment as it were it refuses to move forward. Comments: 1 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 4] [Not really that bad 2] everything Posted by anonymous at April 2, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Money Hi, im Brian n im 19...my life in a nut shell is a rollar coaster...with no coasting ever, just ups n downs n loops n so on. i could tell the internet my life story but that would take to much time and i dont want to dwell on the past...but right now im goin through a lot. its not the biggest opstical in my life ive had to over come but its up there. well about 2 yrs ago my older brother bought our dad(66) a house to retier in (rent free my bro would pay the morgage n we pay utilities n up keep the house for resale when our dad dies) and i just graduated highschool...so he bought dad the house 3months after i graduated...then 6months later i get a great job at a very great company and my brother dies and my sister inlaw said she would pay the morgage for bout a year. 8months go by and now she has to sell the house cuz she cant pay her own morgage let alone ours cuz my bor made ALOT more money than her. n bout less than a week ago we got an eviction for 30days to move out...now all the stuff we bought to fill a 2story house needs to all be sold so my dad n we can move into a small apartment, and not only that but im at the age where im goin to move out so we have to find a place where my dad can aford it when i leave the "nest"...ALL IN 30DAYS! we have 28 days now n we still need to find a place that my dad can aford by himself and is retired, sell bout 3/4 of a house worth of stuff, move into an apartment, make the house look pretty for resale and i work 40hrs a week on top of that...so in other works a 66 yr old retired man has all this stress and all this stuff that needs to get done and i cant do much about it. Life Sucks Big Time...just doesnt cut it Comment Votes: [Yes, it sucks 5] [Not really that bad 0] LIFE Posted by anonymous at April 2, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Juvenile problems I am a 17 year old and i hate my life. I find it sad that i have barely lived and yet I already hate living. My father abandoned me when i was 12 and I haven't seen him since. Everyday I get hit by my mother and some days by my brother. I also get verbally abused because my twin sister, mother and brother call me fat, stupid, ugly, slutty, worthless and "a daughter i wish i never had." I used to think I was skinny and i like to believe I am, but my family has brought me down so much that now I don't think I am. I am not stupid. I just don't feel the need to try because I have nothing to try for. I know I am not ugly because boys like me and I was voted prettiest girl in my school for 2 years now, but I can't help to see myself in the mirror as a fat ugly person. I am a slut but I only do stupid stuff because I need the feel of someone maybe loving and caring for me. Which brings me to another reason I hate my life. My boyfriend of about 2 years just broke up with me because he said he wanted to smoke again and drink with his friends..he's 18. Yes, illegal. I am 100% against underage drinking and smoking cigarettes or marijuana. I think it is unattractive and down right stupid. I will never in my life drink or smoke. But knowing that my boyfriend of 2 years left me because I wasn't enough for him and he missed his gay friends just brings me down to a whole new level. I have no one to talk to. My friends don't like me anymore because I'm so depressing and don't ever want to... Read Entire Entry >>> Comments: 3 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 3] [Not really that bad 0] untitled story Posted by anonymous at April 2, 2012 Static Link Tags: 2012 April Job For over 2 years I have been telling my bosses to move the person that I relieve from that area. He's lazy, unorganized, and shows up just to earn a paycheck. These same bosses tell me repeatedly that they love my work ethic. These same bosses tried to fire me when my son was born and I had to miss 2 days. These same bosses moved me off of 3rd shift to 2nd ....... and didn't have professionalism to tell me. I read it when they posted the new schedule. The lazy guy I mentioned before has been screwing up for weeks. I have been fixing his mistakes (wiping his ass) for weeks. I have told my 6 members of management about his mistakes. He finally gets a mistake past me ....... and I'm the one that gets fired. I've got a 13 month old baby. And I have no job Comments: 1 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 2] [Not really that bad 0] I can't really explain. Posted by Name? Samantha Nick Name? "Piece at April 2, 2012 Tags: Anxiety 2012 April Where to start... I just cut myself again, I thought I was done with that. I'm 16 and my entire life has sucked. I had a great time back in 2009 but now its back to the same old shit. I'm depressed with anxiety and I'm forced to take a shit load of medication. My mother is an alcoholic and my father, who I adored, kicked me out over a year ago. I fell into drugs after that and it made life easier... Shit happened in my social life and it became too much for me to handle. I tried to kill myself as I felt so useless, unwanted, hated. I was caught just before becoming unconscious and dying. I willingly went into a crisis center program that lasts two weeks. I quit drugs by my own will during the program and because I was using that as a self-prescribed medication for my pain, my depression worsened. I started an anti-depressant that had bad side-affects and I reattempted suicide. Once again I failed and began cutting myself as a coping skill. I never returned to school due to anxiety and I started a cyber-school that I can graduate from in less then a year rather than in four. I focus on that. I have no friends left. I went from the most notorious and "popular" stoner to the most shit-talked girl in my high school in 3 days. I don't talk to anyone anymore, just my mother and her husband when I have to. I volunteer at the local animal shelter but unfortunately I can't live there. My mother is always miserable and loves taking her bu... Read Entire Entry >>> Comments: 2 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 1] [Not really that bad 0] Fuck it Posted by whatever at April 2, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Moved around the country. Railroad family. Hated it. I did my last move 10 years ago. I am 28 years old now. Never hsd the chance to experience love or any kind of physical romance. I stay in shape, im not overweight or broomstick skinny. Seems the only rushes i have gotten out of life are attending big concerts. I hate my job i open accounts for people at a fucking bank. Fsmily doesnt seem to know i have needs too. I rarely get to talk to my brother hes too busy being toasted on his medical marijuana. My parents are there for me i guess but ive never gotten them to understand despite their open mindedness. I only have a few friends. Endorphins and alcohol seem to be the only thing that keeps me going. Music too i guess. Story of my life! Dont know what else to say but fuck it! Comments: 4 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 0] [Not really that bad 2] life is life ... Posted by anonymous at April 2, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Life Story I grew up with a evil father, He was a child molester. My mother was too young to really care about her children. Left us alone A lot.I became a mom to my sister and brothers.My Mom just could not get away from my father. He was controlling. He was able to get custody of atleast two of us . Back and forth many years. The age of 9 I told my dad to stop touching me . He was a very sick person. He also messed with our heads alot. I was liked by many people and had friends. We moved a lot, my dad was old and after his heartattacks he stopped working,He seem to use people a lot calling his friends for money etc.. He grew up in a large city 9 brothers one sister and went to catholic School. Famliy is well known and achived great things. My dad being the youngest something went wrong. My dad stopped molestingme and went to my sister,I asked her many times without asking directly if dad was doing anything. We lived in many bad parts of town.My little sis ran away one day .We chased after her only to have a guy put a knife to my brother and my throat. He let us go do to my brave action. AT 13 I was Raped,told my father and he said, I must of wanted it. 18 had a jerk for a boyfriend I was never good enough stayed three yrs.Second bf 5 years he was abusive and I am not sure if I made him crazy. I am not trusting and a hard person ...But through all of this I prayed to God every night to take care of my family. MY faith kept me from all drugs,drinking,etc ..even though ... Read Entire Entry >>> Comments: 1 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 5] [Not really that bad 1] my life sucks Posted by anonymous at April 2, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Relationship so today i got broken up with. i never thought she would leave me but she did after all we have said and done she was just able to pack my shit and throw me away like nothing. i know i am not perfect and never ever ever will be but out of all the horrible things i have done i truly think this was a little over board. i'm not saying what i did was right, but it was something she has done herself with her exes and other guys. but i bit my tongue till my mouth filled with blood. i get put down a lot by her to the point where i feel like i am not wanted and just a burden, which makes me react harshly back towards her. but every things "my fault". i hate everything about me and i'm not pointing fingers but shes deff a part of it. but what really shocked me the most is her instant run to all these guys and girls i have had problems with over the (which she is very much well aware of). also the harassment level is off the charts i would never have done this to her if i broke up with her. i don't think anything like that has hurt me more then ever iv'e been cheated on yes but iv'e never seen them do that. to me that's just devious and now shows me the true side of who i thought loved me. were going to try to work it all out tomorrow and get back together maybe, but things will be different i now know for sure what i thought back then before i met her was true, i'll never be truly loved and will always (soul mate wise) be alone. i'm just completely torn from the inside out and will see her a different way but i'm just a fool for still wanting this which everyone of w.e real friends i have left told me. i don't know i'm just lost and stick with what i know. i feel like shit and prob will for a long time. never have i ever wanted to disappear so bad in my life as much as i do now. i hope things will change. Comments: 1 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 0] [Not really that bad 0] Loneliss in a foreign country Posted by anonymous at April 2, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Loneliness I am 32, very attractive, as my friends or acquantances tell me. I have been married Twice in a foreign country and picked wrong people so got divorced two times. My degree is from the best university in the world yet my job consists of dealing with people who won't ever thank, encourage ad admit into ther upper circles. Maybe because I am too young, or am someobe who is not local and very different from thrm. I feel very isoated at work - no frends, no camaraderie, no one to rely on and talk to. I am doing transactional boring work eventhough I am capable of being so much more. I feel like British snobbery will not see me inside the vircle and am in a thankess place. I have no one t ce home to and hug - I met a guy at work previously and we were in love so I had been waiting for him to get divorced - his idea! - for four years!! Spending all holidays alone as his amily would not accept us/me. We broke up last year and he didnt alk yo e for two months then egging to re-consider everything. I have, hoping he was free and canged. We are now together but he still drinks, abusing alcohol every day and has not still gt dvorced. He doesnt want to live together and I feel so lonely by myself in this flat. I have no one to hug Close and my mum s far away and in hospital. My boss is a real jerk no one wants to work for and I have worked 14 hr days flat which is still not enough. I feel lonely, very depressed and scared to de alone having no purpose or somebody nice around. Men mostly want to sleep and leave and women are jealous bitches - evrn if I ake a real effort to befird. I see no light n front of me. Comments: 2 Votes: [Yes, it sucks 0] [Not really that bad 2] my beautiful life story Posted by anonymous at April 2, 2012 Tags: 2012 April Attitude Meaninglessness was a bright kid but growing up with undiagnosed adhd had problems with motivation at school. my dad died when i was 8, didnt have many friends at school, got bullied, started drinking and smoking when i was 15, got left back at year 8 at school, was lazy and unmotivated, got left back again after a year of doing everything else but study, quit and did construction jobs, went back to start my school, moved in with my girlfriend, everytyg thing was going good, had a part time job in a kitchen working weekends and evenings and the whole summer. got depressed cs of unsociable work hours, split up with gf, lost motivation for school, by that time i was 18. left the country to start a new life in uk. worked in restaurants saved money and did a an arts foundation course, after which went to uni, got in a goverment debt. realized i didnt have the skills to do uni, got kicked out, now im living in a house with korean immigrants in a tiny room, working 12h x 5 days a week in a kitchen for a shit wage and soul destroying work, no actual education, no career prospects, no parents to live with, no licence, no car, no money, no gf, no friends, no time. lost all my dreams goals, and hope. only thing keeping me alive is my mother to which I owe everything. every day is dark lonely and absolutely meaningless and I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. ppl say im still young but to me that means longer suffering ahead. dread to think whats gonna be when im 30. im horribly depressed and therapy or pills cant help cure a shit reality. 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