LIFE SUCKS : Attitude

lifesucks

I had a happy childhood, great family and great friends! got pregnant at 16 and surprised everyone by really maturing growing up so fast and being an amazing mum but before you knew it along came number 2......then number 3 and finally number 4! It feels like I was 15 one day then before I knew it I've woke up 25 and with 4 kids and hating my life! I just want to run away I love my children but as though they were my brothers and sisters!! I don't feel that bond there its like they just suffocate me! I know this is all my fault I choose to have 4 kids I choose to bring them into this world they didn't ask to be here but I can't help the way I feel.
I can't tell anyone because there is nothing I can do about it so whats the point in moaning its like Im just wishing my life away till the day I don't have to look after them anymore and I can live just for me!
Bad mom maybe if thats the way you choose to see it but I can't help feeling like this! save me! before I drown!

An empty, dead life

I'm 53 years old and have been alone and lonely all of my life. At this point, I can't really wring much emotion out of myself. My life sucks, but I can no longer even work up much sadness about it. Starting when I was in kindergarten, no kids wanted anything to do with me ... if I tried to join in with some kids and play, they would immediately disperse. When we picked teams in gym, I was always the last one that no one had picked, and then the two teams fought over who had to get stuck with me. I started falling in love with girls when I was only 5 or 6 years old, but never experienced any affection in return. I started using drugs to deal with the pain when I was 12 years old; I was psychologically addicted immediately and physically addicted a few years later. I was in my third year of college before I had my first girlfriend, but she didn't really want to be with me, cheated on me all the time, etc., but I wouldn't let her go. When I was 25, I finally met someone I loved and who loved me back. We lived together for a year and a half, and this period is the only concept of happiness that I have. But finally, she made me choose between drugs and her, and, although I really, really wanted to stay with her, I proved unable to stop taking drugs despite trying over and over and over again.

There was a complete absence of touch in my life, and I had incredible "skin hunger." I went to college and it wasn't until my last year that I so much as held a g...

unique no one like me

i am 50.my mother never showed me love,she is till alive and i feel guilty everyday that i have no relationship with her altho i know in my heart it is not my fault. i have 4 adult children and feel that they are well adjusted but it isnt because of me that they got that way. i feel that they got lucky / are just good human beings. what i really want is to be all alone with somebody i feel like i could talk to. i drift from 1 thought to another filling my days with alot of pity. i have no friends and i feel unique in that when i say that - it is literal. there is not 1 person i can think of who i have in my life. i spend most days trying to decide what to do - clean the house? watch the tv? or read a book? until it gets dark and i can go to sleep. dont tell me to talk to somebody. it would not change anything in my life.

life sucks for everyone

I'm 26 years old. I'm tall, sexy and muscular.I'm thinking about becoming a model. I have a girlfriend that loves me incredibly much. My parents are the best ever. My friends are awesome. Still, I hate my life. I have been suffering from depression for about 10 years now, sprinkled with a bit of obsessive compulsive disorder.I have no right to feel like that and yet I do.The only thing I seem to do right is hurt people.That's why I want to alienate myself from others even though I know that is the way to a lonely hell. I am a loser even though people think I am smart and cool.The good things in my life were just given to me instead of earned and that kills me. I feel like a marionette being pulled back and forth by strings. I don't know why I feel like that. I don't understand myself and even though my story seems like a joke in comparison to others I read on this site that doesn't comfort me very much, it's more like a promise of things to come. I'm sorry if this post offends anybody, that is not my intention.

i love jesus but he doesnt love me

well this is my first post having a magor low day, im female 39 years old i have no husband/boyfriend no children no pets, my mother died recently she was the last member of my family i actually had any contact with. i have a severe speech impetement and i was homeschooled by my mother so i never went to high school so my prospects are practically non existant, i just dont know what to do with my self ive come so close to trying to commit suicide multiple times all i have in my life is my thumbs up jesus shaped rabbit ear vibrator and now thats broken i no longer have jesus to give me my mind blowing orgasms im too nervous to go out into the world and possibly get fucked by a large gang off hulking negroid men, someone help me

Im 26 I have just graduated from school with a bachelors in nursing. Ive always done pretty good in school and have had good friends trought out my life. The reason im posting is around novemeber i started to feel a loss in interest in hobbies, conversation, and going out. I was talking to a really cool girl at the a few months prior. we hit it off well but then after i started having these feelings i began to loose interest in her. the thing is I dont know why. now we dont really talk anymore. I have just started a new job and on a unit that i like but my downward sprial seems to just continue? I dont feel as social and enthused in life. has any one ever felt like this? see Ive never had a rough life and I feel there is no viable reason for me to feel the way i do. Ive tried sucking it up, going out, working out, etc.. and im just getting annoyed with the way i feel.

Life is a test

38 year old male. No friends. No family. Never had a partner. Lack of personal meaning with life. Quit job, trashed my belongings and made plans to commit suicide, but chickened out. Decided to sleep, play computer games and masturbate instead. Now i haven't talked to anyone for 8 months and have large debts. Can't blame anyone except me and my lack of tolerance for boredom and other people. Feel pretty good at the moment though and will try to come back to the same meaningless boring shit once again. Life sucks, but sometimes worth living anyway. For now...

why?

I hate my life. i hate myself for writing about how much it sucks-but it really fucking does.

i was married, i didnt love her anymore (i worked, she didnt-resentment built up and killed my love for her). we split up a year ago but she still lives with me as she has nowhere else to go.

so i go to work at a job i hate(im a chef and dont want to be a chef buti need to work to pay my bills). I then go home to my studio apartment and ex-wife-no space to myself.

sometimes to break the routine (up at 5.30am, work, home, bed by ten..) i get drunk...but then i feel guilty as i dont have much money...

im not whinging...every day is the same pile of stinking shit and i fucking hate it, i hate waking up in the morning, i hate people, i hate the world...everything is fucking shit...

Dont know

I'm 29 years old single women. i don't know how to put it across what i am going through. life has never been a bed of roses for me. my childhood sucked. my parents got divorced when i was 6 years old. i stayed with my mother and 2 brothers, m the middle child. my mother always loved and favored my elder brother. i was a lonely and fat kid. i had no friend no one wanted to talk to me cause i was fat and came from a broken family. my own brother use to ignore me in school, as if i was an embarrassment factor for him. i wasn't a brilliant student either i always managed to just pass out. i was always interested in music however my mother never encouraged me. i never had any other talent. i was wasted. I didn't complete my graduation cause i took a drop from college in my final year and started working to support my family, cause my brother wanted to complete his masters.my love life sucks, in fact i don't have a love life. I've been in relationships but nothing clicked, cause they all are attracted to my personality, m tall, average looking( that's what i think) and i smoke, i drink etc. I've always been an easy going person, though m reserved and shy. i m a real loner, and ppl take my this quality for an attitude problem. I've never cared what ppl think about me. i have always been loyal in friendship however i have always been betrayed by my friends. my job was going great that was the only thing that use to make me happy as i was always appreciated by my bosses and my team. however due to some circumstances i had to quit my job as a team manager. and now I'm struggling to find a job, it's been 6 months that am jobless. my family has stared treating me like an outsider.whatever saving i had i gave it to my mother and now I'm penny less.my life sucks!!! i got no job, no social life and no support from my so called family. i don't know why m writing this may be cause m bitter,m jaded and m alone and also i don't have any one to talk to.

Sigh

I am wealthy, popular, handsome, and talented. Many people have told me that they wish they had my life. Men always ask me for advice on how they can be more like me. I have slept with more beautiful women than I can remember. I have been to parties only celebrities attend. I have traveled to many different counties of the world. Why aren't I happy? I used to be a poor and lonely kid that no one cared about. My parents died when I was a toddler and so I spent many of my years in a foster home. When I was in elementary school, I had no friends, no one that really cared about me. I was so lonely. One day, when I was 11, I discovered that I had many talents. So I honed and practiced them tirelessly, every single day and year by year by myself until near-perfection, until what I did became recognized by not just my class, or my neighborhood, or my town, but the entire nation, and many years later, the world. I achieved so much success and fortune by my late teens. Now I consider myself to be one of the most successful people in my field. But I am not happy. I am lonely. All of my hard work, but still I can't say that I've ever met a person who truly cared about me, for the person I am and have always been. The only reason anyone wants anything to do with me is because of my success. Fake smiles, fake hugs, fake friendships, fake relationships. Everyone is just using me to get to something they want for themselves. I donate to charitable organizations regularly for noble caus...

my beautiful life story

was a bright kid but growing up with undiagnosed adhd had problems with motivation at school. my dad died when i was 8, didnt have many friends at school, got bullied, started drinking and smoking when i was 15, got left back at year 8 at school, was lazy and unmotivated, got left back again after a year of doing everything else but study, quit and did construction jobs, went back to start my school, moved in with my girlfriend, everytyg thing was going good, had a part time job in a kitchen working weekends and evenings and the whole summer. got depressed cs of unsociable work hours, split up with gf, lost motivation for school, by that time i was 18.

left the country to start a new life in uk. worked in restaurants saved money and did a an arts foundation course, after which went to uni, got in a goverment debt. realized i didnt have the skills to do uni, got kicked out, now im living in a house with korean immigrants in a tiny room, working 12h x 5 days a week in a kitchen for a shit wage and soul destroying work, no actual education, no career prospects, no parents to live with, no licence, no car, no money, no gf, no friends, no time. lost all my dreams goals, and hope. only thing keeping me alive is my mother to which I owe everything. every day is dark lonely and absolutely meaningless and I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. ppl say im still young but to me that means longer suffering ahead. dread to think whats gonna be when im 30. im horribly depressed and therapy or pills cant help cure a shit reality. It seems that suicide is inevitable at one point or the other.

I Loathe/hate/despise myself

Were to begin? I wish I would fall asleep and never wake up...I am 21 years of age and have no direction in life, i have no idea what I want to do...I don't have a bad job but the pay is pathetic and because of this everything is pretty much hindered. I have pretty much no friends as I have segregated myself and become painfully unsociable, I have jumped from relationship to relationship in turn spending every possible moment with these girls and no have nobody. I have turned to weed and have become addicted spending every spare penny to numb th pain and fill my spare time. At the same time I am a very hatefullied vengeful person...I easily explode and my head continuously feels like its on the verge of cracking... I have to deal with stupid stupid people on a daily basis and I HATE them just for being slightly inept, hate to the point I want to repeatedly stamp on their heads until it e xplodes, same. With. Children of. Any age, snobby people , ugly. People , just about everybody. I am a livi ng. Pile of shit and a waste of air.

I suck but everyone would deny it

First off, I hate it when people say that I'm not just a s*** stain. Why do they think they can convince me that I'm not a loser when I am beyond a loser...? I don't bring the fact that I'm a loser up anymore and instead I just postulate what would happen if I did... They're likely to lie with all their might about how I'm acceptable as a human being or even that I'm good and then go away all smug like 'I bet I really made a difference to his mind set' as if I'm their pet, or, 'give him time and he'll build up his confidence' f*** off I'm CONFIDENT that I'm a loser. In this respect I am better than them; I'm better at being honest and measuring myself fairly.

Anyway, back to why my life sucks: I MUCH prefer spending time on my own rather than with people. Sometimes I enjoy some aspects of socializing but the overwhelming feeling is that I'm trapped. Trapped in my mind (lonely?) and trapped in the social situations, unable to get away (since to leave just to get away would be 'rude').

Essentially, because of reasons, I just think my life is balls and that the only way I can see my life having meaning right now is to relieve people who are in the same mental situation as I was (or worse!)... Relieving them of their lives.

Yes; I give blood. Yes; I plan on donating my bone marrow and one of my kidneys. Yes, I help around the house (this wasn't the case when I was 'depressed' however) and I at least TRY hard at work even if my mind and body are, to ...

What is the point?

Imagine how it feels to be at 27 and knowing that your life will never be even 1/4 as good as it used to be. That is me. Every day I wake up hoping to die but I am too much of a f%^&^cking coward to kill myself. Beleive me, Ive tried but every time I get to the "moment of truth" I cannot go through with it. Lame, I know. I wish a f%^&in meteor would fall out of the sky and bash my brains out or somethin crazy, at least I might get a news article. But back to why I feel this way. I gre up in a pretty much perfect home, but once I got to college I started experimenting with drugs and before you know it I have a major opiate addiction. Well seeing as my career is a pharmacist that does not go together very well. I graduated pharmacy school and went to work as a pharmacist, did very well, 100K plus salary, unlimited access to drugs, life was amazing. Now after I am caught, Ill be LUCKY if I am alble to get a job at f&%^ing McDonalds. I know my pharmacy career is over because who the fuck would hire a pharmacist who was stealing drugs on the side? Wasted my entire education and basically the past 9 years of my life. My family has disowned me, no friends at all apart from other drug addicts that I met in rehab.. Completely broke, 100%. Unable to find even a minimum wage job cuz drug addicts are not even human in todays society. God I wish I had the balls to be able to end it all but I dont so my life will be a steaming pile of dogshit for the rest of my life

Loner

Ever since I got into elementary school, I was always to told not to talk to any other kids unless it was necessary so I wouldn't get into trouble (or to be more precise, get into gangs). As a result of that, I remember most of the days in school I spoke as few as only 2-3 sentences. I was so quiet that I got bullied so many times in middle school. In time, I became an extremely shy person, I even panicked and got nervous when I talked to my classmate during my freshman year in college. I had no close friends nor dated any girls and I stayed home with my computer whenever I wasn't at school. As of now every so often, I see photos of my friends hanging out during the weekends that makes me feel like a nobody. As a bonus, my ugly face also makes me even more depress which is why I don't like to take pictures of myself.

There's only a few more courses left in my major to take yet I feel like I am a lot worse that my classmates. Recently I have been getting C's and D's in my grade but I'm too scared to tell my family. They keep asking me when I will graduate, find a high paying job, buy them a house, and get out of poverty, but I'm not even sure if my stupid brain can help me get that certificate.

Sometime I would imagine myself hugging my friends and they would comfort me, but I don't want them to think of me as a psycho because I am still sane. However, I have a feeling I will break down some day.

Apperance

I am ugly. No doubt about it. I hear people telling me that all the time. One kid said " the reason you don't have a boyfriend is because your an ugly fuck" ... I cried. So now whenever I think a guy likes me I tell myself it's not real because my face ruins everything, but when I finally grow the little bit of confidence to talk to him and tell him how I feel, they reject me. Yesterday my best guy friend freaken rejected me! He said to me that if I loose some unnecasarry weight and take care of my self he will consider. Some friend. But that is not the point. The point is that I don't want to be alone forever. And don't say there is somebody for everybody because that is something pretty and confident girls say..

My life...

I am 19. Some aspects of my life are okay. I have a good family and parents that care for me. I get good grades and am on my way to graduate college. I wouldn't say I'm ugly, but I wouldn't say I'm gorgeous either.

Despite the "good" in my life, there are other things. I have chronic depression. No matter what I do, I'm never happy. I found this sight by typing "life sucks" into Google because all of my thoughts are based on depressing and negative thoughts. I also have situational depression, which causes my to go into a deep, dark, suicidal depression when bad things happen. This is where I am today.

My best friend (guy), just fell for my other best friend (girl), even though they both knew my strong feelings for the guy. I've been pushed away. I no longer matter. I am worthless and have been realizing that I have been all along. I have no friends.

I used to know a girl, who changed my life forever. She had a heart attack and is now a vegetable. She can't do anything and I miss her.

I recently had 2 family members die of cancer, and 2 friends committ suicide. I am in a horrible financial situation and I don't know what to do.

This may not seem like anything HORRIBLE, but no one knows what depression is like until they're in their deepest, darkest hours, contemplating suicide. It takes over my mind. It consumes my world. It blinds me. I can't escape. I'm trapped in this dreary place. I can't find a way out. I'm worthless. I'm done. I can't handle the feeling of being controlled by depression, but no matter what I do, it's there, controling my mind and thoughts, taunting me. I have iscolated myself from the world. I don't care if people think this is dumb, or something not to worry about. I know my pain. I know how this feels. I know. And no one understands. No one cares.

No nothing.

I want to work, I want to learn, I want to love, I want to be happy! I don't have money for college, I have a part time job where I work 12 hours a day and when I get back I'm tired as hell. And I don't have any money left for ANYTHING. This isn't even my computer. How can a person stay motivated if what I want in life I can't be reached. All I can have is a part time job. And another after that..and another. I can't even buy a freaking book. And I love to read so much. I wish I could just read all day somewhere in a meadow in the mountains and enjoy the sunshine. Health care...jobs..social pressure...no real friends. I have friends, sure..I can't go out with them that much because I don't have the money to pay one drink. ONE. I'm 20. Nobody to help me. I'm not depressed or sad or angry, I'm just numb since I tried my best and it wasn't enough, because of MONEY. Please could you tell me, how do I make my life better? How can I change this? And be happy? I just want to not worry about bills and have enough money for books. I don't even care about clothes that much or expensive materialistic things. I want to work. I want to change. I need help. Help isn't coming.

Loser

I'm truly.starting to feel like a complete loser. My wife does love me, but my father hates me. He barely talks to me, makes it clear he disapproves of all my choices. I am over 40 and almost broke. If my wife didn't have a good job, we'd be ruined. I was let go twice in less than a year, and have no real marketable skills. I probably need to get a Masters degree, but our credit is a mess, so can't get a loan. I do have a lot of life insurance and thinking maybe I can at least set my wife up by throwing in the towel. At least I know my family would be set for the future. A valid reason, maybe?

I have been sitting hear crying for an hour trying to find a silver lining in my life. I feel that I have no right to feel depressed and alone, because other people have it a lot worse than I do, but I can't help it. I am in my 30s and my life is going nowhere. I see the people around me accomplishing so much with their lives, and I see how they look at me and think of how pathetic my life is. I don't have any close friends and I have never dated anyone in my life. I am at the point where I would love to settle down and have a family, but it's never going to happen. My social anxiety is so intense that I can't go out unless it's to work and back; I can't even talk on the phone to people. It's pathetic and depressing and sometimes I wish it would just end. I don't see the point in living a life like this.